Tonight, I cracked open the 2005 Mirassou Pinot Noir that I bought while in Greenville a few weeks ago to visit the man.
It was ok. Nothing spectacular. Pretty fruity, maybe a bit too sweet. I like my wine dry. And subtle. There really wasn't anything subtle about the Mirassou. It could have passed as a light cabernet sauvignon, honestly. Oh well. It was on sale. And I might not have made it through the night without a glass of something to calm my nerves.
Today was stressful, to say the least. Any day qualifies as stressful when your professor calls on you and keeps you standing up talking to him for 34 minutes about something that you clearly demonstrate you are incapable of talking about. Especially when that "something" is civil procedure. Especially when the "something" seemed perfectly clear before he asked the first question about implied cause of action.
Ridiculous. I'm not mad at him. I just think I'm stupid. And, boy, did I feel stupid. There are about 70 people in that class.
I wonder sometimes if I am stupid. Sometimes I don't think I'm really getting it. Maybe I'm not capable of getting through law school on top. And I really want to be on top of my class! Mainly because I'm a greedy, indebted consumerism addict. And also because I like nice things. And I want to be able not to worry about money. And I want to be able to make a lot of money in a short amount of time so that I can make good investments and be able to do GOOD things.
Ok, so that's my evil side right there. I also think it's practical, though. I really hate having no money. I hate depending on my parents to pay my rent and front me grocery money. It's lame. I like to think they're investing in me. I'll take care of them when they need me to. And when I have lots of money (hopefully), I can repay all their kindnesses and generosities.
It makes me sad that I'm greedy. But that's how I feel.
Maybe after I do my homework, I'll have another glass of wine and start feeling more charitable and guilt-stricken and altruistic.